If only I knew

You told me that you've been unhappy for the past half year.
You : You've stay unhappy & swallow all your dissatisfaction for the past 6 months, so that it won't hurt my feeling & I can stay happy.
Me : I am so sorry that you've been unhappy for the past half year & I didn't even see it. If only I knew, I'll take back all that I've done that have upset you. I can even leave you so that you can be happy. I have always thought that it's your responsibility to be patient with my temper, stress & pressure. & it served you right that you have to listen to my scolding for all the things you've done. I didn't know when I put my pressure on it, it has been hell to you. If only I knew.

You told me that I didn't get along with your family as well as your ex"es".
You : For all the bad things i've said about your family, for not supporting your family, for making big fuss just for having to go to your family dinner & staying with your parents once we got married.
Me : I love doing all that. Especially with your company It's a great honour for me having to live with the most generous & kind family in the world. I don't think I can ever find any family that can accept a stranger to a close-knit family with such an open-hand.

You told me I was a pressure to you
You told me I was a task to you, seeing me was like having to wake up every morning to go to work
You told me I said negative things about you
Me : You should be given pressure coz you owe me
You : All the nagging, discouragement words & insensitive things I have said were pushing you away from me. Your feelings toward me was fading. Your 1st ever promise to me has long been forgotten as I was no longer the same person that you met the 1st time when you promised me that.
Me : If only I knew, all my selfishness & ignorance has been pushing you away from me


You told me I couldn't go back to my mom's house once we get married
You : I am selfish that I am taking away somebody's son with me
Me : !@#$%
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Me : I guessed what you mean is you want me to be by your side at all time. Cause you'll miss me. (I understand your mother didn't mean it when she said I go back t00 often)

PS : Given another chance, I will take back all the wrong things I did to you.
If only you didn't give up on me 6 months ago.